Love locally, act globally

 ...Something I noticed when the light was just right. It's strange how we can hear a song thousands times, and then one day, over 2 decades after the first listening hear it in a completely new way and feel like we're hearing it for the first time only now. Like a light bulb suddenly switched on and gave the song a totally new and different perspective.  This happened to me today with a very dear song to me, "Echo" by Incubus. I've always loved it but today it transformed me back to me, like I remembered who I was. And after that happened I heard the lyrics for the very first time, although I've known them by heart for over 20 years.  "My biggest fear will be the rescue of me". Yes, my biggest fear resulted in me rescuing myself, again. After I did it once in 2020, it returned this year to teach me the lesson once and for all, so I don't have to repeat it again. It is a very hard lesson to learn so I guess the lyrics "it reminded me twice t...

 ...just give me something to break. It's one of those days, or better yet, multiple of those days. They take me back to 2020. We all have our story from 2020, but here is mine. I started the year on anti-depressives after I had a mental break-down at the end of the previous year. The pills acted as a charger for my depleted battery, and they worked fine. It took a while to get used to them and after a few months I started getting better. I slept better, I ate better, I had enough energy to live my life again. But for me, balance was always the problem. I was either in a state of running from one place to another, trying to YOLO cuz of a very real FOMO, or I was mildly depressed not wanting to do anything or see anyone. Balance is a very fine line my friends, very fine. Balance was my problem in other aspects in my life as well. Hobbies, work, relationships, I was always all in or not interested at all. I don't know if balance is ever finally achieved or just a state of equilib...